Have you ever felt this way?

Sometimes I cannot distinguish the difference between fact and fiction, daydreams and life, for that matter, memories and dreams. At times I am unsure as to whether something has actually happened or if I have fabricated some sort of polyester memory to make myself feel better….or for that matter, worse. Furthermore, the feeling seems to be never-ending.

I have difficulties dealing with people at times because I don’t know where we stand, what I have done or how I will be received.

There is a film called “The Science of Dreams,” a great movie directed by Michel Gondry (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind). The main character faces these same questions, it is fascinating to watch his life unfold and slowly fall away from underneath him because he lives not fully in reality and not completely in his mind, but in some middle ground, leaving him confused and constantly falling; awaiting to finally hit the ground and know that something truly exists, that there is a true reality and that, in that moment, you know where you are and what is happening to you….whether or not you shall remember it later is another story.