Birthday time again...yuck!

It’s birthday time again. Strange, I was going to say that it felt like just yesterday since my last one, but it honestly doesn’t. Confronted by a brief moment of complete blankness, I couldn’t remember my last birthday at all; however, it’s all, at least much of it, has come back to me now. It wasn’t one to remember, reckless debauchery etc…

Much has changed, then again, a lot has sustained within the last year. Strange, I have never began a new year on New Years, nor have I done so on my birthday…but, for some reason, this time around, the latter seems to be appropriate.

I’ve grown to dislike birthdays…well, mine at least. Though I’m young, it is akin to a constant reminder that you’re one year older and most probably in the same place. For some reason, it makes me feel a tad bit trapped. The regular post it on the mirror, reminding you that you are wasting more time than you are taking advantage of. Then again, you do get those nights when you know you are exactly where you are supposed to be, with the people you’re supposed to be with….and it’s simply divine, as temporary as it is.

My last semester ironically starts the day before my birthday…what’s next? Hell, you tell me!!!

Maybe I’ll be a drifter for a while, a vagrant of sorts. I think I would feel a little too pointless for my own good, and would end up pan handling for my daily alcohol rations.

Peace corps maybe?....sure sounds like a good idea, something I’ve been running through my mind over the past year and a half…then again, it’s a big commitment and responsibility…I usually don’t do well with those…hence, my resume is laden with short term freelance work.

This is probably just nonsensical rambling, but it’s getting close to the wire here. Of course, the painstaking question everyone is asking is “What’s next?” And I don’t know.

I would like to bank on 12/21/12, but I think that would make me feel even more anxious.

So here’s to a new year, I hope it goes better than the last and I hope the next step is as obvious as a slap in the face….even if it is just that…it would save me some time.

Cheers