I Wonder:

I wonder....

Why is it that everything breaks down all at the same time? (my computer, car and water pipes in my house all took a shit on me).

Why is it that there is a season for everything....even if it's people coming into your life...they arrive in a tidal wave?! (random people resurface all at the most inconvenient of times...even if it were a day too late).

Why is it that believing in something makes you act out in the opposite direction? (the fear of accountability....that's all I can say about that).

Why do we never feel comfortable and enjoy where we are, and always yearn for where we would like to be? (we need to feel like there's a goal, something else out there....but when is enough?)

Why is it that when we find comfort in people do we look for others to mix things up? (we might get used to people and love their company, but enjoying those who are complete opposites are just, if not more, fun).

Why do I feel so safe in the solitude of darkness, yet fear it when I'm sober? (no idea on this one...yes I do, I'm lying...I'm a deeply paranoid, and at times neurotic, person...that should speak for itself).

Why is everything that is new so exciting, yet they end up making you so nervous that you lock up? (because you don't want to mess anything up?)

Why? I just want to know why things are the way they are....nothing ever happens at the appropriate time, nothing is ever placed where they would best lay. There is always a problem with something, nothing ever just runs smoothly, I suppose if it did, it wouldn't be life...but why does it have to be so up and down?

I just don't understand why everything can't be good, peaceful, happy and copacetic!!! Maybe, if it were, then people wouldn't question life...then again...I suppose...how many people actually do?!

Any insight would be appreciated.